Jane | Safe Haven

At the moment…

At the moment there’s one thing for me Only one thing that will set me free I’m ready to walk straight out that door Cause right now I can’t take anymore I’m not a rag just to abuse Try if you must, but I will refuse I’m a person mum, why can’t you see That gradually you are killing me Do you ever wonder why I always cry? Did you care when you saw I wanted to die? I needed help but you...

If I could run away…

If I could run away from all the pain inside If all these knots I have weren’t tied If all the anger just floated away If I could have just ONE good day One day when I feel free to fly One day not having to ask why One day where I’m not wanting to scream Just one day when I could dream. If I could run away in my mind Run away and out of this bind Run away to mountains wide To a place I don’t have to...

No More Shadows

A hand reaches out for eternity twisting, turning, reaching. Another hand, no strength, weak wanting to reach failing to reach dying. Through fire, storm and wind, continuously, strong, endless, a help line forever. Invisible connection, reaching, stretching connected! At last – hope! Strength weakness gone. Two hands entwined power, trust, hope. No more shadows. Light – darkness...

Choice

Confused. Move on? Hold on? A decision to be made. Which way to go? Let go? Fear, pain, hurt, guilt. Turn it around. Happiness, trust, positive. The past? The future? What about the present? What about now? What to do? Smile and move on? Frown and go back? Decision. Choice. Confusion.

Too Late

I see myself falling, I crash to the ground, My world around me, Comes tumbling down. I cry endless tears, But the pain is still there, I see myself falling, Through endless air. My head’s all mixed up, I’m just so confused, In this game of life, I always lose. My tears are a river, Dragging me under, The yelling and screaming - lightning and thunder. I’ve now fallen down, I can’t try again, I’m...

Answer

When the mind succumbs to nothingness and the body in its deepest sleep gets deeper every second. She will not wake. She will not cry. Peace. She will find peace. She was searching for an answer - She found it.

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RIP Patrick Barr 1958 – 2009

It is with regret that we announce the sad passing of Patrick Barr, former founder member of Safe Haven and my previous husband, on 23rd April 2009. Patrick died very suddenly at his home in Cardiff which he shared with his partner of two years and their respective sons. Although Patrick and I had our differences in the last few years, I had enormous respect for his strength of will and courage in facing his own issues and reaching out to other survivors. He will be greatly missed by many, including his son, Simon. Anyone wishing for more details can feel free to email me.