Melancholy Muse | Safe Haven

Depression

A dark chasm opens its yawning mouth and it tries to swallow me whole as I fight its blackening advance into oblivion but it bears down on me so I run but I am going nowhere and I look behind me to see its gaping void whisper how hungry it is and horror fills my exploding heart as I fall into the black pit of quiet terror…

Cycle

I hate and I hate Until my head explodes And migraines plague me. You push and you push Until the rages flood And violence plagues me. We fight and we fight Until I hate myself And all these things plague me. I only want to love you, I’ve only always cared, And dissensions plague me.

Sonata

Slip into my hand Yet spill through my fingers While I touch you Warm…inviting… And I kiss you into ecstasy And eternity, and infinity Until there is nothing left But us…smiling.

Rage

I surrender, broken, into your spell When twisted memories slice my head And spills out all my dormant rage Causing my broken heart to bleed. I need to feel your calming touch To rid this raging beast inside, I need to release this howling fury And let in all that’s been denied. Escape is such a desperate act, An act that rage set into motion, But I can’t see which way to run Through these windows of erosion. I...

Stone Mason

You’ve carved yourself into my heart, Patiently engraving every crevasse, Deliberately, carefully smoothing the rough edges, Polishing it with timeless memories Of our shared life, Sculpting the union of our souls, Not trying to take up too much room, Carving for yourself a space of your own, Just big enough to hold you In my heart.

Lute Concerto

Thousands of concentric, perfect circles Flowing effortlessly through one another Uninterrupted. Like ghosts. The incessant trickle of rain Filling a puddle.

RIP Patrick Barr 1958 – 2009

It is with regret that we announce the sad passing of Patrick Barr, former founder member of Safe Haven and my previous husband, on 23rd April 2009. Patrick died very suddenly at his home in Cardiff which he shared with his partner of two years and their respective sons. Although Patrick and I had our differences in the last few years, I had enormous respect for his strength of will and courage in facing his own issues and reaching out to other survivors. He will be greatly missed by many, including his son, Simon. Anyone wishing for more details can feel free to email me.